Monday, August 6, 2007

My heart is overflowing....

Life with our God is never dull! I have really been feeling challenged lately to take my relationship with God to a new level. A few weeks ago during a Sunday morning service, I felt God speak very clearly to me that He wanted me to jump into the river with both feet and stop standing on the river bank dipping my toes in the water. While that thought was scary, I committed to obey His prompting. As I stand on the bank looking at the raging river, I realize that once I jump in I will no longer be in control. The current will take me where it wants and there won't be much I can do about it. While I realize that is God's intention, I also know that in order to be carried along and not drown, I need to be clinging to God, the best life jacket on the market! All of this has been swirling around in my heart, and I know that God desires a closer and more intimate relationship in order for this journey to be successful. I hear people talk about what God is doing in their life and what He is saying, and I have felt lately like my spiritual ears were on mute! Well apparently they have been turned back on, because I feel like He is speaking about 15 different things to my heart at the same time!! I don't even feel like I am at a place where I can succinctly communicate all that He is saying...but I do know that I am awed and amazed that He loves me and desires to lavish that love on me. I know that He desires to use me and I feel like such an inadequate vessel with so many flaws...yet that is the beauty of our Savior. All He asks is that we are willing, not that we be perfect. I read an awesome quote this week by Max Lucado:

"When you're full of yourself, God can't fill you.
But when you empty yourself, God has a useful vessel."

Lord, make me a willing vessel. Empty me of all my pride and fears and just the junk of sin, so that I am an empty vessel that you can flow through!

1 comment:

Chris Adams said...

Tanner & I are so blessed to have someone like you in our lives!
You're outside beauty!!!!!
You're inside beauty.
You're heart for those in need.
You're patience for Tanner & I.
You're diligence in taking care of us, the house, finances,and others.
You're willingness to quickly forgive us and ask for forgiveness.
You're desire to pursue God and what He wants of you.

I am proud of you and Love you very much,
Chris